My Best Friend...S...

I have had a plethora of people come in and out of my life. Having lived in so many places, I have acquired many different relationships with people. Some good, some bad. So many different relationships, some that were brief moments, some that have lasted much longer then I would have ever expected. Many stand out to me, so many great people. But today I have two special people in mind.
First. My dearest Emily Lou, as I have and will always call her. She and I have been friends for about five years, and her joy and light have illuminated my life for so long. She has changed my view on friendships, and has helped me see the true power of a souls being bound to one another. She has protected me when I was feeling vulnerable, and I like to think that I have too. She has taught me a new love for sugar. Not just in the candy form ( although milky ways will always make me giggle), but also in the icing sugar form. I never would have thought to dip my finger in a new icing container (Never to "scoop" only to spread, believe me it is a very precise thing with her). And honestly I never would have thought that someone really loved sugar so much that she would eat it off the spoon from the bucket of sugar, oh! How I love her. She is my closest girl friend, and she makes me smile all the time. Our friendship is not based upon convenience, we truly have cultivated a friendship based upon how different we are. We always say there is no way we ever could have become friends, and yet we are. How I love her truly

My other friend I met in a completely different way. He and I never would have been friends if it hadn't been for an odd train of events... The first time I ever talked to him, he doesn't remember. I told him that I was going to marry him because of his last name... It was a slightly embarrassing moment in my life, but what do you expect? When I get uncomfortable, I start making awkward small talk, and I was in
a. A seminary class
b. I didn't know anybody in there really
and
c. Well... I am just an awkward person?
Anyway, after that I somewhat avoided Matthew, I didn't want to explain, my ridiculous nature, but hey... That who I am.
Eventually we made friends obviously, and he has become special to me. He is willing regardless of the time, or day, or what's going on. He is willing to just say to me, I'm here tell me, or I'm sorry I can't change the situation, but just know I am always there for you. How thankful I am to have him in my life. After a hard adjustment to living in our small town, I am glad that I finally have the ability to have someone to talk to at every turn. He never sees how much of a difference it makes to me that he listens, to all I have to say, even though it is really a lot... Poor guy... I am so grateful to have him.

So many amazing people have been in and out of my life, so many that it seems nearly impossible to thank them all for all they do. My life has been filled with joy and love by people who have helped shape who I am today. How grateful am I for their influence. I have truly been blessed.

"I Can Tell That We Are Going To Be Friends"

Ode To Utah

Okay I can't really write an ode but I felt like it was a good title. Poetry and I do not get along, but for the sake of entertainment I have written a poem, one that I feel will touch the hearts of millions someday (After I am dead naturally), and my family will make billions off of.

Ode To Utah (Cue Dramatic Drums)
Oh Utah, how I use to despise thee
Your lack of an ocean and your water with which my tummy doesn't agree
Your people who sometimes make me want to scream, "I want to get away from thee!!"
Your hot, then your cold, and you have something Against Pepsi
Your drivers do now know how to signal which often send me on my knees to plea
Hoping that from them you will save me;
Often I have been heard to say, Utah is the last place my head will lie.
But then all at once, my opinion did change, I love thee
For Alas BYU has answered my plea
And for four years I will reside in thee
And how happy and full of glee, I will be
When In my dorm, in BYU I will be
Drinking a Pepsi, and laughing at thee.

Okay now that that's out of my system, I cannot believe I am going to BYU! If you ask anyone who has known me since (well forever) I will have been heard to SCREAM I hate Utah!! I will NEVER GO TO BYU! But, now here I am going, and I couldn't be anymore excited!! I am so ecstatic! I just want to jump around and leap for joy! Its been hard, many of my friends weren't accepted, and it was sort of a bittersweet moment. On the one hand, I was so excited and it felt so right! I have never felt so right about a decision, but on the other had my heart went out for those who didn't get in, who had wanted to more then me.
So off to Utah I go, come August. I am more ecstatic then ever, and I cant wait!Now I just have to make it through the rest of high school, alive...

When life starts racing around you!

What a month January was!! It seems like life is racing full speed ahead of me, and continues to ignore my complete request to slow down. Rapidly the decisions I have been avoiding making are staring me square in the face. It makes me want to possibly turn and run in the opposite direction.
It's weird, as we near graduation I feel relationships changing. Some people I have been close to have started to fall slowly away, and others have gotten every closer. Its daunting realizing that I am going to go to Minnesota, so far away, from everyone I know, alone. It has helped me learn more about being easier going, and trying to get along with people... I have to be when I am all alone.
I have got to get a job, or heaven help me I wont know what to do!! I have to pay for college, and it is seeming nearly impossible for me to get a job... Sigh....
College sadly won't pay for itself... I wish