Finally

I'm done
My semester is over. And honestly I feel like this:

I can't believe I actually made it through this year! 2012 has been so long and hard, and my soul just feels tired, but at the same time, I am extremely excited. After the last semester of school, where I basically fell apart sitting here with generally good grades, and a trip to see my family in under 24 hours I am SO excited!! My Christmas season has started!! Yay! This means I watch all of the Community, Office, and Doctor Who Christmas episodes!! I am already half way through the Office (haha I have WAY to much time on my hands now!)

I was talking to an old friend a few days ago about life and in the conversation he said  that he "hoped I found something I loved" and my first thought was, "But I have"!How awesome is that??! I mean I know I have talked about it a lot because this blog is kind of like my diary for the universe to read (really I am just writing this so that the doctor can find me and we can travel together).  I just hadn't realized how truly happy I am. Sure people make me angry, and some days are hard but one of my goals for the year was to wake up happy about what I am doing and love my days and I do. I have found a niche and something I enjoy. Not only that, I have also found a group of people I feel comfortable with, and a ward that I can actually sit through (nearly, hey I am working on it). So life is good, I am happy, and  ten months a go I didn't think I would ever be again (I know I am so melodramatic). 
Sorry about my tangent. Christmas/Finals is really what I want to talk about. I am sitting in the computer  lab, pretending to write a paper while secretly laughing at everyone studying, even though  come Monday I am back to studying my french! I get four blissful days, away from the idea of college, and the terror that is in my soul about the classes I am taking next semester (GULP!)

Happy end of the semester to those who are in college, and Happy Holiday season to everyone else! I love you all, and I am so grateful for the readers I have (woo readers!)


Xo

Julia

Back in Black

My summer break is almost to an end, and I am back in Utah to start school again. I suppose the name of this post should actually be Back AND Black, because I am black, and I am back--pause for roaring laughter.  As the school year commences, I wanted to share five great things about my life today.

1. Kirsten 

After four months away from the person I have spent nearly every day with for the last five years, it was AWESOME to see her again, as I write she is currently sleeping, and making the funniest noises! She is my sister from another mister, and  my favorite foshosho<-- I promise to never say that again. We have already had so many adventures and I have only been here since Tuesday. One such adventure was when we found someones License to marry application in a stack of job applications!  Oh its good to have her back again (Also, doesn't she look FOXY!)

2. Fry Sauce 

 I don't know about anyone else, but I have to say that fry sauce is without a doubt one of my very favorite condiments in the world.  It is the perfect combination of flavours, and when you add it to fries from the Creamery, it is like heaven in your mouth. Now, I believe that the best fry sauce is from the Creamery on Ninth and while I know the rest of campus uses the same stuff, it just tastes better on Ninth Street. Also, the chocolate ice cream there is better then anywhere else in the world. Oh the Creamery, how I have missed it.

3. Mountains

  After living in Missouri for the last few months, it is the most glorious thing in the world to be living so close to them. Mountains are almost as amazing as the ocean, and I love the mountains here because I always know where I am, because they are always to the east.

4. My new apartment

Okay, this is going to sound super silly, but I love my new cheap apartment. It makes me happy to be in a little, QUIET, space. And, the best thing is I am across from the high school, so every afternoon for a while I can hear the marching band, and that is just awesome.

5. Schools about to begin

The beauty of school starting is the unknown. This year can be completely different, and I have complete control over it. I love the artificial environment where everyone can be someone new, in every class if they want.  Now me, I have been practically the same since 7th grade, I know who I am. But, you see I have new bruises, new experiences and new feelings about things, and it has helped shape me to become a stronger person. And, I am ready to face what the crazy-o town has for me. Bring it on BYU!

Happy Tears

So, I have this feeling inside me right now, and I just want to preserve it, and know if other ever feel this way.

I am so happy, right this very moment, that I want to cry. 

There is no real reason for it. I was just reading Post Secret . It used to be my Sunday night treat, but now that I work, it just happens when it happens. While I was reading them, it felt like my whole soul just went to zen, and I feel blissfully happy.  People out there feel the same way I do, Paris is a good idea! Run away from anything that doesn't uplift your soul. How can I argue with that? And you know what it made me decide?  I decided that today, you, yes you, need to be you.

BE YOU

And don't listen to any of the crap the rest of the world is screaming at you. Don't be afraid of what the rest of the world says, because whomever you choose to be, someone will have a problem with you. Below is my new motto:

Seriously, don't let the hate into your home, your mind, your soul. Because once it is there, it is like a plague. It won't leave you alone, and you have to cleanse your soul. And your soul is the most important part of YOU! And its scary sometimes changing, but that is okay. In The Curious Case of Benjamin Button it says 

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”"

I love this. I absolutely love this! You have control of your life! You make the decisions, you make the rules, you make the outcome for your journey through life!

It's different for each of us. And it changes everyday sometimes. Today I am happy sitting in my sweatpants listening to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes,  blogging and pinteresting. I am happy being me, knowing that I am completely imperfect. That most days, every day, I want to run back to Washington and curl up on the beach in a blanket and stare at the ocean. I am okay with my Doctor Who obsession. I am okay knowing that I am just a little bit different from everyone else I know. And I am okay knowing that people won't like me the way I am , and will always try to change me. Because guess what!?

No one will ever change me, except me, because I am made up of perfectly imperfect parts that I cherish. 

 I hope that you can find that for yourself.

(here is a little Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes so you know what I am talking about ;) )

And if you are more into more woman vocals:

( I want this to be my wedding song, and I want to tap dance to it)

Have a great week!