So, I have this feeling inside me right now, and I just want to preserve it, and know if other ever feel this way.
I am so happy, right this very moment, that I want to cry.
There is no real reason for it. I was just reading Post Secret . It used to be my Sunday night treat, but now that I work, it just happens when it happens. While I was reading them, it felt like my whole soul just went to zen, and I feel blissfully happy. People out there feel the same way I do, Paris is a good idea! Run away from anything that doesn't uplift your soul. How can I argue with that? And you know what it made me decide? I decided that today, you, yes you, need to be you.
BE YOU
And don't listen to any of the crap the rest of the world is screaming at you. Don't be afraid of what the rest of the world says, because whomever you choose to be, someone will have a problem with you. Below is my new motto:
Seriously, don't let the hate into your home, your mind, your soul. Because once it is there, it is like a plague. It won't leave you alone, and you have to cleanse your soul. And your soul is the most important part of YOU! And its scary sometimes changing, but that is okay. In The Curious Case of Benjamin Button it says
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”"
I love this. I absolutely love this! You have control of your life! You make the decisions, you make the rules, you make the outcome for your journey through life!
It's different for each of us. And it changes everyday sometimes. Today I am happy sitting in my sweatpants listening to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes, blogging and pinteresting. I am happy being me, knowing that I am completely imperfect. That most days, every day, I want to run back to Washington and curl up on the beach in a blanket and stare at the ocean. I am okay with my Doctor Who obsession. I am okay knowing that I am just a little bit different from everyone else I know. And I am okay knowing that people won't like me the way I am , and will always try to change me. Because guess what!?
No one will ever change me, except me, because I am made up of perfectly imperfect parts that I cherish.
I hope that you can find that for yourself.
(here is a little Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes so you know what I am talking about ;) )
And if you are more into more woman vocals:
( I want this to be my wedding song, and I want to tap dance to it)
In general I will always try to be upbeat here on Day in The Life, but I just have a few grievances I have to air with humanity and then move on, and hopefully it will be mostly upbeat. No promises though, but I don't think I can write anything slightly humorous until I get this all out...
"You Shouldn't _____ (Insert instruction here)":
Next time someone tells me what I should do I am going to freak out. And, I wish I was kidding but I am not. Just because I am only 20 doesn't automatically mean you can boss me around. Just because you are a mom/dad doesn't mean you can boss me around. The only person who should even try to tell me what to do is my mother!(and on occasion my father), and even then I still have the right to say no. But you are not my mom, dad, or even my conscience, so let me choose for myself. Don't tell me what to read, don't tell me what to eat, drink, wear, or watch on TV. I don't care if you think my TV shows are sleazy, or scummy, that is your opinion and I didn't ask for it. I had a guy at work tell me that as a good Latter-Day Saint I shouldn't be reading the book I was reading. And I honestly almost punched him in the face. I actually thought about it, and then instead told him how it was referred to me by another member, and that I read whatever I please. Seriously people? Half of the time its people I don't even know that well telling me what to do, and the other half it is people who know me well enought to know I march to my own drum, and no one can stop that. Unless I come to you with a question I need help with. LEAVE ME THE H! ALONE! You lead your life however you please, and I will lead mine how I please!
The Virgin Diaries- AKA What Happens to the Missionaries Nobody Wants to Marry:
So, I watched the Virgin Diaries for the first time this last week. If you have never heard of it, here is a clip from the Ellen DeGeneres Show that nearly describes my feelings towards it:
I hope you laughed, because I did. The concept of the show is my first worry. It is so common place now that, we actually have to have a show about the people who ARE virgins? I get it, if you want to be in relationships where sex is involved, go for it, I really don't care how much sex everyone else is having, because your sex life is between you and your partner. Personally I have chosen to wait for marriage, and it is nice to know that I am not the only one out there, however, my problem with this show stems from the episode I watched. It had this guy in it:
See, as a single woman at BYU this is my single greatest fear in life. And, every ward has them. And, it leads me to wonder. What did his parents do to make him so messed up? How do you avoid this from happening? And why in heavens name would someone make-out with him for three minutes for a damn T-Shirt!?
I just don't get it.
And The Greatest Offender of All:
I hate Facebook, I really really hate Facebook. And I have 5 reasons why.
1. Sixth Grade Relationships
No one cares that you and your boyfriend are so in love, because you are 12. And by this time tomorrow, you won't even be together anymore. But, this has become even bigger then 12 year-olds. I am to the point that I actually delete people because of how much of their relationship is played out via Status Updates, and Wall Posts. Your relationship should not be right there in my News Feed. Honestly I don't need to know that you just kissed your boyfriend, and you are now cuddling on the couch. Nor do I need to know that some times he is a big baby :/ (Oh, and yes I will be talking about smiley faces in a moment). If your boyfriend is treating you like crap, then you need to talk to him face to face. Don't put it on his wall. If you are to immature to do that, then maybe you shouldn't be in relationships in the first place.
2. :/
I think I must just be getting old, because whenever I get online I am super confused about all the smileys people use. The only ones I have a handle on are:
:)
:(
:'(
:P
:O
;)
Anything outside of those six, and my mind gets confused. What the H does
:/
^-^
;-;
:3
>:(
And the plethora of other ones mean!? I don't get it!!! And what does it mean when people post them?
3. Passive Aggressive Posts
Facebook is a passive aggressive's playground. It is the only place that you can say things like:
"Ugh, you make me so angry!"- Shoot, sorry I hate when I make you angry... Only I haven't talked to you in years... So was it me who made you angry? Or someone else?
Song Lyrics that make no sense
"Somebody that I used to know"-- Do you still know them? Did they disappear!? Did you break-up, wait you where in a relationship? Whaaaa?
"I wish you would just accept the way I am! Ugh!"- ... I do? Wait.. are you a murderer? Am I supposed to accept you if you are a murderer, or does that depend on who you kill?
4. Misspelling words/ Abbreviation
Am I the only one who doesn't understand half of the abbreviations used anymore? I actually have to Urban Dictionary them, because I have no clue what is going on? For example:
IKR! TOTS inapropor. that sh cra rt thr! U hv no ida hw md that mde m! -- What does that even mean? Honestly? Half of my time on Facebook is spent trying to understand what people are ACTUALLY saying! And then there are the misspelled words:
"Stopid peple make me cry. they allways say dum things, and alot of the time it makes no scents. Yu know?"
And then when you add the two together, you get half of my graduating classes statuses
Y do yu allways say thos things to hrt me! U hve no ida how AWEFUL yu mke me fel abuot my
lfe!
And you wonder why every other country makes fun of us?
5. The Classic
The classic to me, is the fishing for the complement.
If you hate your picture so much. Don't put it up, but don't fish for compliments. All of our pictures should look more like this:
Facebook is going to drive me to drinking, and I didn't even mention how much I hate political debates on Facebook, because that in and of itself will someday be its own post. Humanity is going to drive me to drinking!
Tea that is. That is all I have, I promise next time I will be more upbeat! I just had to get this all out ;)
What do you think? Am I being to melodramatic? Or do I have a point in my madness?
I have about 5 things I love more than anything in the world... Well besides friends and family that is.. And I thought I have mentioned them enough I ought to just get them all out at once... And, yes there are more, but for the sake of today, I am only going to mention 5 and maybe, you will get more about each one at another date, for sure you will get more about Doctor Who, we are just going to make that assumption , because that is the biggest obsession of all.
1. Adele
This lady is AMAZING! Everything she sings turns to pure magic for me. I love the tone of her voice, her everything! Her make-up, her hair, her voice... 21 is the most listened to album on my iTunes. Every single of the the top twenty-five songs on my iTunes is her. I have been listening to her since 2008 when she came out with 19. Actually, I got her single for free on iTunes (Hometown Glory) and fell immediately in love with her. She has the voice of an angel, and like the e-Card says she knows how to express every feeling one has after a break-up (On a scale of 1 to Adele how bad was your break-up?) No other singer in my mind comes close to how much I love her ( Although Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros, and Jason Mraz are very close). I spent all of last summer memorizing all of 21, and I was actually extremely sad when she started playing on the radio, because that meant that
A. She was becoming mainstream
B. That I was going to tire of her song (Rumour Has It)
C. I couldn't just enjoy her unadulterated , people now were going to have actual opinions about her...
2. Spider-Man
I FREAKING LOVE SPIDER-MAN!
I love Spider-Man.. He is the best superhero in the world, in my own personal opinion. And I don't really care if no one agrees with me, because I am right. I love the comics, I love the animated series (yes I have seen every episode), and I love love love the movies. I spent all of high school thinking I was Spider-Man. Don't believe me? Ask Justin, or even Matthew. I love Spider-Man... In fact, I am going to name my son Peter after Peter Parker, I was going to name him just straight up Spider-Man, but I thought that CPS would have a problem with it... I love Spider-Man so much that I think I am him.. As demonstrated in this video!
(Excuse my hair, its my day off!)
In addition, have you seen the new movie!? HOLY TOLEDO!!!! HOLY SPIDER-MAN! Andrew Garfield is amazing! Not only is he a good actor, he is amazingly attractive, and he is part English! How can you go wrong? Oh! And the movie was awesome! That is my favorite story, Lizard is the best!!! I still watch the animated episode of that comic, because it is LITERALLY THE BEST EPISODE! So of course it was an AWESOME AWESOME, movie!
3. Tea
Yes that is a Doctor Who quote on this mug, Yes I am going to make this...
I love tea more than any other drink.. Ever.. And this includes, but is not limited to Diet Pepsi, Lemonade, Water, Vitamin Water, and Milk (which is a given since I hate milk). I have to have a cup every single day. Twining's is the best, I drink it every day, but I really will go for any tea. It makes my soul happy. I personally think that tea makes every situation better. . I may be secretly English. Because, everybody knows that the English deal with everything with a cup of tea. When in doubt right, put the kettle on, right? I honestly believe that the best thing in the world is curling up in my wrap pants, watching Doctor Who, and drinking a big cup of Twining's (weak with two Splenda for a big cup, one for a small cup)
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4. Harry Potter
I am a part of the Harry Potter Generation. I read the first book in 2000 and was obsessed! Granted,who couldn't be they are brilliantly written, they suck you in, and the are just pure magic! I've wanted to be Hermione Granger my entire life. I figure I already have the poofy hair! All I need is magic! (which I also have). I don't think I have ever gone a day without thinking about, or referring to these magnificent books ever. In my family when we get mad at each other, sometimes we just have to yell Avada Kadavra! at each other. Sometimes when I turn on the light I mutter lumos (and of course nox when I turn it off). I spent all last summer babysitting (hanging out really, those kids are the best), and I spent most of my time under the cruciatus curse, because Lego-Man wanted me to do whatever he said ( I spun in a lot of circles) And, I am not ashamed to admit that when I turned 11 and I didn't get my letter to Hogwarts I cried... For days. How could I not? When I got the seventh book, I cried when Fred died, when we found out Snape was not evil, and of course the hardest when Dobby died. I read and waited for new books for seven years of my life. It was my life. Thank heaven for J.K. Rowling's genius! Without it, I could never yell Alohomora when I got frustrated at a door that didn't open.
Look at Little Daniel Radcliffe! He is so adorable!!
5. Doctor Who
David Tennant, forever my Doctor
Matt Smith, a brilliant Doctor, in a bow tie and a fez. Because fez's and bow ties are cool! Love of my life...
I love Doctor Who... I LOVE DOCTOR WHO I LOVE DOCTOR WHO!!*
Cough, Cough... Sorry I just had to get that out there. Doctor Who is my very favorite thing of all. I love the show, in all its cheesy alienness. If you haven't ever noticed I elude to it in nearly every single blog post, and will continue to do so. And, not going to lie, eventually it may have to get it's very own blog post like Starbucks. It is magical. I love trying to explain it to people though, because I always get the best looks. How do you explain, that the best show in the world is about a Time Traveling Alien who protects the world from other Evil Aliens? People laugh at you when you say that. So, if you have never watched it I probably think I am crazy but I am not! True, sometimes it is silly, and a little lame, but then there are moments that take your breath away, you truly become attached to the characters and it hurts when they leave the show. Rachel and I cried for days after the 10 regenerated into 11, and when Rose leaves, and when Donna leaves, and I can promise you that I will cry in this next season when the Ponds leave. I feel like Doctor Who fits into every day life. For example, I gave a talk about four weeks ago in church, and I integrated 3 Doctor Who references, I drive listening to the soundtracks because I feel so much more epic, like I am actually going to do something way awesome, and the world better watch out, my exacto-knife is nick-named the Sonic Screwdriver, and Rachel and I are turning our front door into the TARDIS this year... And we have a cut-out of David Tennant that sits in our room, to protect us in the night...Oh! And I recently decided my daughters name is going to be Amelia River (when I have children that is) Most of my clothing now a days consists of something that reminds me of the Doctor (3 T-shirts, and 2 pair of High Top Converse). Also, it helps that I want to marry Matt Smith (Although Tennant still claims my soul, and will forever be my Doctor, he is married.. And 41, and my mom said that was just a little bit too creepy). Matt Smith is beautiful and also a hipster... Which is just cool. Hipsters are cool. Fez's are cool. The Doctor is cool, and someday he is going to come and get me and we will fly away in the TARDIS together. That is why I work out now a days, because when the Doctor comes there is going to be a lot of running, and I don't want to Weeping Angels, Daleks, Slitheen (from Rexacoricofalapitorian), Cyber-men or the Silence to kill me.
That is all I have for today. There are so many more things that I love, Wrap Pants, Jane Eyre, Pride and Prejudice, Community, Vincent Van Gogh, the list goes on and on, and I will talk about them on a later date, but I feel like I have gone on forever about just these five, and honestly I could go on for days. I love things, I love surrounding myself with things that make me happy, and who doesn't? The best way to keep our lives in balance is to be surrounded by beautiful things.
*If you decide to watch it, suffer through the first season, because 9 isn't my favorite and the monsters suck, but it is worth it to see 10 (Tennant) act. He is amazingly talented.
