While everyone else is giving thanks

Everyone is so thankful this time of year. And I think it is awesome! Because there is so many great things in this world. However, today is Sunday, after a very long week and difficult week, so you can take a guess at my mood. And as you may be noticed, I like to vent my problems on my blog because that is what it is here for. My personal thoughts displayed for the world to see. And I have quite a few problems to air out with humanity.

I go to a fantastic school that is really hard to get into, and yet I find myself questioning do people even know how to put their clothes on the right way?

For example. This week I was sitting in a class and someone asked  if the United States was still a commonwealth of Britain, well technically she said England...

Let me say that again. She asked if the United States was a commonwealth of England. 

What the fuck?

How can someone make it so far in their life and not realize that the United States is actually an independent country? And before you ask, yes she was from the United States, specifically she was born and raised in Arkansas ! I know... What the hell is wrong with our world?

 My faith in humanity has been declining at a steady rate. Between the angry republican posts on Facebook (still people? Really it's over Obama is president shut the hell up). and I realizing my children are NEVER EVER going to have a ding dong or a slice of Wonderbread! What type of childhood will that be for them? Might as well take away Sesame Street (Thank God Romney wasn't voted president, and my kids will still know the joy that is PBS) On a side note, I have no problem with Romney, I am just scared of my children not knowing the joy that is cookie monster. I am so glad that the Zombie Apocalypse is approximately 32 days away so I won't actually have to bring kids up in this world, because I am worried my children will become mindless drones, like so many people who surround me. Our world scares me... Scares me. 

What do you think? Am I being dramatic? Or does there just seem to be more stupidity in the world then there use to be??

Millions of People Suffer From it Every Year!!

I have a problem....
And millions of women suffer from and through it ever year.Its acronym is R.S. but to common people it is called Relief Society.
Now before you call me a blasphemer and condemn me to eternal agony in the fiery pits of hell, hear me out.
I love my church, I love the gospel, and I love that I have something to believe in, I think everyone should... But the fact of the matter is:

I HATE RELIEF SOCIETY.

Now you may condemn me to the fiery pits of hell ;) or you could just keep listening, reading, whatever.  There is more to this story then the fact that I have an intense dislike for R.S. in theory Relief Society should be my favorite thing, and I should love hearing from people, and it's not even the people in relief society, for the most part people always give good uplifting lessons, and how extremely exuberant every one is that you are there (seriously it's creepy I don't even know these people) the real problem is... I just relate with boys better...Which I suppose is good since I consider myself extremely straight. But it creates a problem because, I just don't get girls. I don't get the constant crying, the relating of experiences, the crying, the constant reverence, the crying, the judging, the constantly and over the top sweetness, oh and did I mention the crying?

There must be something wrong with me, but I think it probably stems from the fact that my best friend growing up was Ovaltine Jenkins (Who someday I will explain in full to you all).  Ovaltine and I were inseparable from the moment he was born, until Minion came along. I think that it caused a problem, because I just don't get girls.

In addition to my not understanding girls I also lack the sit still and be quiet gene that all girls seem to have been given, but me.  I was pinning during Sacrament meeting today (What do you expect) and I found the perfect quote to explain me, which I have below.

 I am nearly 20, and I still have this problem. When I was dating Matt I use to blame him, because he couldn't stay still, but now... I've realized that I am exactly  the same way. I can't stand being restrained in anyway. Which is magnified in Relief Society because everyone is always so still, and calm and reverent, and then there is me in the corner barely containing myself, I fidget, I poke other people, I draw, I do everything to try to keep myself from exploding, but in all honesty some day I am just going to explode, and it is going to look something like this:

(obviously I am the Hulk)

Which is why I have come to my new conclusion. I should be granted permission to go to elders quorum. Someone has got to tell me how I can do that, because honestly,  it sounds so much better to me. I get to hear men sing (which in BYU is always a treat, honestly, if they would just sing at me all day I would be beyond happy), they aren't completely ridiculously reverent, because like me guys don't seem to be able to sit still for long periods of time. They don't get preached at about their "divine role of womanhood" (which actually makes me physically ill every time I hear and/or say it) and they are pretty much feel the same about seeing me at church as seeing me in a store, walking home, or on the moon. They are chill, they make sense, and for the most part they say exactly what they think, at least when they are talking to other guys. Oh, and they always seem to come out a lot drier then me after relief society because of all the dang tears. I would like to be allowed to sit in there and pinterest and draw, without being judged.OH!!!! And they get to wear pants (sign me up RIGHT NOW)... I love men,  I am glad that I don't have to live with just women for the rest of my life. Don't get me wrong I love my girl friends, and I love living with Muffin, but the fact of the matter is, living with girls is to complicated, church with girls is too complicated, girls are way too complicated.  Relief society leaves me feeling like the famous phrase from Young Frankenstein. Get me out of here.  Let me out of here. Get me the hell out of here. What's the matter with you people? I was joking. Don't you know a joke when you hear one. Ha Ha HA Ha HA. Get me out of here! Open this door or I'll kick your rotten heads in! Mommy!!

Save my soul!

Julia

The Ridiculous Grin on My Face

This is what I look like today!!  (well minus the blonde and nicko, this  picture was taken a year ago).

I am so excited and happy!

Because guess what!

I am going to declare a double major in French Teaching (or maybe Studies)!

And  I didn't know I could feel so happy about declaring a major.

WAHOOOO!!!!

I am grinning like an idiot and I can hardly keep still I am so excited.

And it is more than that.... Do you ever feel like your entire life is being put right, and you can see the whole outcome right there, and its so exciting?? Because right now I feel like it is. I am not going to lie, things are difficult and sometimes I just want to curl up and cry. But the fact of the matter is.. I am happy so happy and I didn't know that a year could make such a difference in the person I am.

I have always thought that I knew exactly who I was a no matter what happened that would never change, but the truth is, I am so much different then I was even four months ago. I have learned truths about myself that I never thought existed, and i am going to list them out right here because, well I can.

Things I learned in 2012 (and it isn't even over yet!!)

1. People aren't always going to be who they say they are, and it's okay to let them go, even if it takes you months
2. You can be happy everyday, you just have to let yourself be
3. Slow and steady wins the race -- now this one sounds stupid but there is an explanation. I gained a butt ton of weight last year because I was "emotionally distressed" and now I have decided to regain control of that, and its working. Slowly. I wanted a miracle wake up and be 120 pounds, but that just won't happen no matter how hard I try! so instead I am taking it slow 37 pounds down, and its working! give me a few more years!
4. You need a little help from your friends (or a lot). I would never have gotten to where I am without them ;)
5. Sometimes Karma works out, and you get to sit back and laugh. And laugh. And laugh. Hell i am still laughing ;)
6. Do your flubbin homework- This one is a duh to, but oh well



Anyway. I am super excited about the way life is working out for me, and I am so glad that things have happend the way they have in the last year because, where i was last year was not healthy at all, working hard for something that I really didn't want, no wonder I broke down!


So! Carpe the fuck out of Diem! And do what you love, because if you don't how are you ever going to find happiness?

xo

Julia